I don’t think either of us can really remember how it started. How we met or what started the conversation. All I do remember is that draw. The uncontrolled forced that pulled me towards her.
I was young and foolish. I didn’t know what i was doing. I treated it like a game. Back then I didn’t know better. I didn’t see the harm my actions have. I only cared for myself. As much as i reminisce solemnly over how events unfolded in the past, I feel like they couldn’t have happened any other way. We didn’t know what was in front of us. What the future could have been like. All I know is that if things hadn’t ended so abruptly back then, they would have never become what they are now.
It took 4 years. Full of mistakes and poor relationships. Goals and crushed dreams. We discovered who we are and what we want. we found ourselves, while silently watching the other from afar.
What we had never truly died. We still cared for each other. Always wondered what the other was doing. shared the pain of a bad break up or just a shitty day. While neither was willing to admit it, there was a connection. Even from a distance the other was always in their thoughts.
As much we talk about how things could have been if only we had known sooner, I feel like it wouldn’t have been the same. It was truly that moment when we had stopped searching. Just given up and were almost willing to settle for whatever came our way. That’s what made it perfect.
That overwhelming and truly blind-siding feeling. It was love. It was almost instantaneous. Whether we wanted to believe it or not that’s how we felt. Deep down we both truly felt it in our hearts but were both too afraid to admit it.
I’m glad we finally did though. We’ve found in each other everything that we’ve always wanted.
You’ve been the sweetener to the bitter coffee that I’ve been living for so long. You pulled me out of the darkness that I had let myself slip into. You’ve done so much for me and shown me how great life really can be once you’ve found that person that you want to spend the the rest of it with.
I can’t look to the future and not see you in it. Whether I’m planning out my week or even what I want to do with myself for the next year, I just find it impossible to imagine anything without you there by my side. You’ve become more than my friend. Even more than my girlfriend. You’ve become my partner. That one that understands me. No matter what mood I’m in or how bad my day was, You just know how to look at me in such a way that tells me that everything will be fine. Just your eyes show me that it’s all uphill from here.
You make me forget about the stresses of my life. You blind me to all the negativity in the world and pull me out from the darkness that I surround myself with. I’m constantly at a loss for words when I’m around you because no words will ever be able to describe how I feel about you. The connection I feel when I”m with you. I just feel complete. I feel like every fear and flaw in my life has just disappeared.
Since the day I met you, I’ve never forgotten that feeling you give me. From day 1 you’ve never left me feeling unhappy.
There’s truly no other way to describe it.
I love you Danielle.